Life Update

Hi lovelies, long time.. no chat. Most of you probably haven't even noticed i've been away lol. 

But, i've took some time off from blogging mainly to focus on my university work and my job. HOWEVER i can officially say that i've handed allll my work in (besides from my presentation, which is next week) I can't wait to just be officially finished and get my grades back next month. Third year has definitely been stressful, but i know that i've done all i can do so i just have to sit back and relax. 

Another piece of news is that i've started my driving lessons (!!!!) i've been saving up since i was about 18 and got myself a savers account at the bank to do so, i'm so excited i'm finally getting them done. I wanted to do them as soon as I was back home from university, just because i wouldn't feel comfortable enough starting them in a different town.

I've only done 4 lessons at this point, and i'm not saying i'm amazing but they're going seriously well and my driving instructor is just the best.

That's all the updates i can give my life's pretty much just been work & uni work (how exciting)
I hope to be back to blogging twice a week though :)
xox

The Blogger Recognition Award

Hii lovelies, today's post is going to be a lovely post for 'The blogger Recognition award'

The beautiful Katherine over at Millennial Rants tagged me to do this post. I couldn't wait to do this post, so let's just go on with it shall we..

Here are the rules:

 Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link to their blog
 Give a brief story of how your blog started.
Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers.
 Select 15 bloggers you want to give this award to.

How my blog started

Well basically, over the summer I did an internship with College Fashionista where I was blogging about being a 'Style Guru' (where I also learnt I didn't wanna be a fashion blogger) I really enjoyed it and was proper thinking over in my head for ages whether I wanted to create my own blog, just about my own life experiences and basically a bit of everything life. Some of my friends in and out of uni had blogs, and so I just thought well, what have I got to lose really? It'll be fun and something to sort of help me de-stress away from uni work, I started off making a new twitter account purely for my blog and then created my first post on the 22nd September 2016! 

Advice for new bloggers:

I would just have to say to write whatever you feel passionate about. The great thing about blogging is that you can do that, if you want to write something different to what you normally do then go for it. If you aren't enjoying reading it back then what makes you think your viewers will? Another thing i'll say is, to not expect to get 'famous' from your blogs if you're purely blogging sent free stuff then you're doing it for all the wrong reasons (in my opinion) and to not get down if you aren't getting any views straight away it takes time. 

I don't actually know who to tag, as i'm sure by now everyone I follow have all been tagged and done there's. But if you haven't done it when you see this, go ahead and try it!! 

Thanks for reading.

xox

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Storytime: PDA experience

Hiii lovelies, it's another story time post about my dating life since they seem to be in high demand aha 

This post is all about 'PDA' and my feelings towards it. I actually HATE it, i mean we've all been there knecking on whilst on the pull on a night out i actually cringe about those days now. But on a date? It feels even worse whilst you're in public space and all they wanna do is constantly kiss you, like i just ain't comfortable with that yeno.

So, on night outs with whoever i was 'seeing' i'd be kissing them without a care in the world of who was watching. Like, were in a club surely everyones doing it, but as i've gotten older i'm just like ew what was i doing? Actually makes me sick no one wants to see that. 

Then whilst i was dating someone, we'd be out having drinks or at a meal and be holding hands which i don't care about it's the norm but when they start snogging me and people are staring it just makes me wanna hide under the table.. literally. I don't even know why i care so much about this, and about people looking (please tell me i'm not the only one). But we was once in a club and we were there properly early, so we were sat in middle and all bar staff could see us and all he wanted to do was snog me it just made me want to die!! 

Don't get me wrong, theres nothing wrong with kissing but full on snogging in middle of a club is just a no go. What makes it worse is when you have clubs on snapchat and they go HUNTING for club kneckers ahah makes me feel so awkward, thankfully i've never been caught.. that i know of anyway.

This is a different to my other 'dating stories' but hope you liked it all the same. 

xox

What I Got For My Birthday

Hiii lovelies "i'm feeling 22" hehe had to put that in there. So, I thought I would just do a lil post on what my amazing friends & family got me for my birthday...

So, off my mum & dad i got a photo printer.. i always sound so weird saying that but i LOVE printing photo's off and i just cba paying loads for them yeno. So i actually chose this myself and then they bought it, but what i wasn't expecting was this little book (!!!) i love personalised gifts and it was so unexpected. I've made one of these for my friend before and they're just so original and cute. 

I got this cute meerkat off my eldest sister, and my favourite animal is meerkat so of course i just fell in love. It even has it's own name.. i mean can it get any cuter?! It's so cool how she got it like i've never seen meerkat toys expect for like the GoCompare adverts it's so cuddly too. She also got me a lovely meal but being a bad blogger (and too hungry) i didn't take a pic but it was v.yummy.

This is off my other sister, i've always wanted a colouring book but never actually bought one it's so calming and therapeutic too deffo gonna help me with this final year of uni. She also cleverly thought about getting me colouring pencils too aha.. the BEST part about this present though is the sharpener. I mean just look at it, it's a sharpener that looks like a 'Rolliflex' camera.. my fav camera that i'll never get lol. 

These are off my two friends in uni, they also got me the lightbox which i've wanted for AGES. They got me so many amazing presents i'm just in love with it all and can't wait to do my nails now or try a hot chocolate. 

This is a present off one of my best friends on the course and she legit knows me so well, get me anything cat related and i'll love it (all my friends actually got me cat related cards lol) and the mug well just explains my life 24/7 basically. 

These are all off my bestest pal.. again off my course aha. We've been mate for three years and she really does get the best gifts, they're all so personal too and a gal loves personal gifts. I even have pjs in the grumpy cat so these socks go PERFECTLY and they have that padding on bottom so no falling over for me. I just cannot wait to snuggle up with this cutest hot water bottle and all these snacks aha.

This is off my all time bezzy and again she gives me the most personal gifts.. knows me so well.  I cannot wait to read this book it's gonna be so helpful to me and interesting probably learn i've broken all the rules already. She also got me a coronation street colouring book.. Yes another colouring book AND IT'S CORRIE eep, i got too excited and took it back to uni with me before i actually took a pic. It's so cool it actually tells you about the scenes the photo is off highly recommend. I know you read my posts so THANK YOU M8 xox

So, i hope y'all enjoyed this post and got an extra insight about me and all the things i love. 

xox

Throwback Thursday: Feeling Nostalgic

Hiii lovely's for today's post IT'S MY BIRTHDAY so whilst i'm home i'm gonna do a #throwbackthursday of some old pics.. prepare to lol & me to cringe.

I was gonna do a birthday photo for each year, but turns out my mum & dad got to my birthday's and just didn't take any pics lol sound.

As it's also 3 years tomorrow since the death of my Grandma & 8 years last week since my Grandad's I thought it would be cute to look back at some of my favourite memories too. Especially since I was with them 90% of the time.. no exaggeration aha.

I think these are actually from my 1st birthday, but wow I was an ugly baby, not surprised my parents didn't take pictures of me. Why was the bow actually the size of my head though?!

Guessing this is at some family party, classic candid shot though love it. 

 This is when i think my Auntie Betty came to visit, she lives somewhere across the world.. i think i was at that age where i din't know how to smile like WHAT is that face god sek.

                                                          Cute pic of me loving my mum & she's just like ew get off bants

you'd think i'd remember riding a horse but i actually don't.

this photo proper makes me lol, me and sean loving life, charlotte acting like she's sitting on a chair not a moving chain and Georgina being part of the Spice Girls. we really are the coolest family

me and my sister are that kind of people, where we aren't twins but loved dressing like each other. How cute are our dungarees though???

when you just wanna be your grandma

can't even say anything good about these photo's i mean, me with a ball in my mouth or is it an acton shot?!

Georgina with what looks like a tea pot cosy on her head, Charlotte doing a back bend off the banister & me just trying to pull my eyes out.

you would think Sean was the normal one.. lol nah

 incase you didn't already get it, we are MASSIVE liverpool fan's i seriously think since the ground opened we've had season tickets.

my holy communion (if it wasn't obvious)

swear i remember this day, might've been around 2008 we haven't changed at all except for my brothers hair aha

our last christmas with our Grandma.

I actually have some actual birthday photo's now

                                                  18th 

my last birthday meal & birthday where i got to take a photo with my Grandma. I never would've though that a year later, i would be sat in hospital holding her hand and when i said goodbye to her it would be the last time before she passed away the next morning.

20th

            21st

22nd

Hope you liked this style of post, just something different and cute/funny to look at and for me to reminisce on some old memories.

Day In The Life Of A Casual Blogger

Hiii Lovelies, I saw this post over on 'Campus Society' by Ruth MacGlip who is a 'fashion communication student' and also 'freelance social media and writing for various brands, magazines and websites' I found it super interesting so thought i'd join bandwagon. 

So let's get into it shall we for my usual Monday routine..

8:00 am -  wake up. Check both Twitter accounts, 4 of my Instagram accounts, Facebook, Snapchat, Campus Society, go back onto twitter once more. 

8:15- manage to pull myself out of bed, brush my teeth, do my make up, throw on some clothes and trainers, try and style my hair into a decent side part to straighten (which get ruins as soon as i step outside)

9am - leave for university. 

9:10 - get into my first lecture just spotting a friend who i can sit next to. Chat about nothing whilst grumbling that it's too early and wishing it was still the weekend. Checking to see if my attendance is good enough for me to just walk out and be back in bed (it's definitely not) Our lecture starts and we get handed a photograph each of someone else's work that they brought in, we then have to write what we think about it.. i of course got the work of the best person in our class like what can i say .. NOTHING IS WRONG IT'S PERFECT. Then have to listen to someone talk about my work, but nothing bad was said so I'm still loving life.

11:15 - we finally have a break from the lecture, go to the canteen downstairs to grab a cookie as big as my head and a bottle of coke just to make me feel somewhat alive ready for our next lecture. 

1:15-2:15 the second lecture ended and my stomach is rumbling louder than a fog horn. Me and my friends spend about 15 minutes trying to think where to eat, until deciding on going into weatherspoon. YAY FOR NACHO'S. When we are waiting in queue to order, a fight starts going off with a regular and bar man saying he is barred, and takes his drink off him (banter ) this causes more of a riot and the regular finally gets dragged out after kicking seats and sending bar mats flying. This was the excitement I needed for a Monday lol. 

2:15-4:15 - our last lecture of the day. We had a guest speaker come in telling us all about how great her life has been since finishing university and the opportunity's she's managed to have. Yeah thanks for making my Monday afternoon so great. After that's over and no one has any questions to ask, I say goodbye to my friends and walk back home. 

4:30-5:00- posted some photographs onto Instagram, one on my photography account and another on my dogs account. I have a dogs Instagram account even though i'm never home so I literally just have it to remind myself what they look like aha. I also watch as one of my scheduled post went live, so started spreading that around on Twitter and Campus Society. 

5:00-6:30- watched youtuber's newest uploads of the day; Alfie Deyes, Alice Thorpe, Joe Sugg, Jasmin Clough, SacconeJolys, Caspar and This Morning.. for the lols. Then switch on Channel 4 to watch Hollyaoks. 

7:00-7:30 - go the shop to get myself a sandwich, big bag of wotsits, bottle of coke, bread and some milk. 

7:30-8:00 - put on itv to watch coronation street.. why does my life revolve around soaps though seriously? I watched this whilst enjoying my chicken and stuffing sandwich. 

8:00-8:30 - whilst corrie was on a break i decided to wash some of my plates, write up some plans for blog posts, write up some potential photo ideas for my university idea and debating whether or not to do a blog post on my photography account. I did actually enter some photography competitions to put on my blog though. 

8:30-9:00 - watched the second part of corrie. 

9:00-12:00 - got myself all ready for bed, got into bed and watched an episode of Celebrity Big Brother since i'm getting way behind. After i'd watched one of them, decided to watch a film, 'Now is Good'. Who doesn't love a good sad film to fall asleep to. 

12:00-8:00 - time to fall asleep and do it all over again tomorrow, even though i probably didn't fall asleep till 2/3am. 

Hope you found this somewhat interesting ahaha. 

xox

I Am Embarrasing

Hiiii Lovely's, how are you all?

For this post I thought I would share some embarrassing stories with you, I mean there's quite a few so i'm not gonna do all of them aha just something to make you laugh (maybe)

Asking for wrong maths test: okay, so basically it was my GCSE's and first of all I couldn't even find my desk like you get seated in your sets and alphabetical order well mine wasn't with my set? So i was like waahh i'm lost but then someone helped me and it was right at the front (!!!!). There was no test paper on it, so I asked for one.. little did i know i asked for a year6 test paper lol banter. So they couldn't find it and was like "you asked for wrong one, it's this one" this took up like 10-15 minutes of my test time AND everyone else in my year could see. Kill me. 

Knocking on wrong toilet door: this probably sounds bare weird but basically, my mate was in toilets and some old woman came in and was like "the only free toilet has no toilet paper" so i thought i'd do a good deed and get some off my mate for her. I ended up knocking on wrong toilet but was proper banging, and shouting stuff and some woman came out and was like "when the doors red it means someones in there" i was like jeez obviously got wrong door soz. 

Walking into wrong toilet: this kinda leads on from the last, cause this has happened twice (!!!) once i was drunk so yeno that ones excused.. but does anyone else get confused by the gender signs sometimes? I don't mean the signs but the people ones yeno where the lads in pants and the girls in a dress? no, okay, just me. Why does this confuse me so much?? Even one of them had the lad right across the door and I still walked in, i was super natural then realised there was urinals and there was a man there i was like EEEEP WRONG ONE. 

Forgetting how to make tea: first of all i work in a pub and it proper annoys me when people ask for hot drinks like get a bevy fgs. But anyway, some couple walked in and was like "can i have a tea please" and i haven't even been taught how to use the coffee machine really but you'd think that tea would be straight forward, right?.. not for me. I went ahead and put the tea bag into the section where you would put the coffee capsule, but no tea was coming out(?!) so i was just like sorry it's not working. Then i later realised if i'd just put the tea bag in a mug and then added the hot water it would work, i drink tea 24 times a day you'd think i'd know by now. Wow just don't ask me for tea aha. 

That's all i'm gonna share for today, i hope one of these made you laugh. Have you ever been in any of these circumstances? Please just say yes to make me feel better xo

My Experience With Anxiety

I've never told anyone that I suffer with anxiety. I'm such a closed book as you could say and hate telling people my problems. I've heard people I hang round with constantly saying 'what even is anxiety' 'if someone wanted to hang out they would, don't make excuses' 

I never knew I had anxiety until I really read people's side to it and thought omg that's 100% me I couldn't explain it any better!! I always knew I was different though. 

I was always shy in school, never knowing how to make friends. Afraid of not being accepted. Afraid of being the odd one out. just scared that i was constantly annoying them with my presence that they couldn't wait to get rid of me. 

Even when I got asked to read allowed in english lessons I could just feel it in my eyes and throat that at any second I was about to cry. I was a good reader it was the only thing in school I was good at, it was the thought of everyone just staring and hearing me read. What if I didn't know a word and messed up. What if I started putting a voice on without realising it and everyone started laughing?! 

Recently it's been getting worse. People ask me to hang out and the fear of that just gets too much, my mind goes into overdrive of why I shouldn't. Everyone will stare at me. They don't want me to hang out with them anyway they're just being polite. 

Even in work, I work in a pub and i'm not a social person and on my first shift my boss even said I was quiet and all I wanted to do was make a good impression, I tried talking to the staff but I didn't know what to say. I'm no good at small talk. 

On halloween weekend I went back to liverpool to work some shifts, I felt like the new staff all over again even though i'd been there all over summer. I had a mini panic attack just over thinking the situation, that I was being left out, they were all talking about me, I was the loner of the group. I even start over thinking the shift in general that I couldn't cope with the rush, i'd get everyone's orders all wrong, i'll forget what shorts we had. 

I wish I knew how to stop these thoughts but every day they just seem to be getting worse. I can't even leave my room at times to go the shop across the road for a pint of milk. Just thinking that the shop assistant will think i'm strange just going for milk, or that if I don't wear make up people will stare at me. How do I cross the road, what if I look strange, what if I go to cross and a car goes instead and I get in the way. 

I always hope i'll get confident and be the type of person to just walk up to everyone and say hi. whenever I try to be confident I just be funny instead, it's something that come natural and having banter with my friends just stops everything going through my mind. 

I just wish I didn't overthink situations with my friends and that I could just be myself without this voice going a million miles in my head. It's taking over me. But i wont let it.

My Positives & Negatives Of The Week

This is a new thing i’m going to be doing on my blog just a little re-cap of my week. 

Positives

1. Bought new duvet set 

2. Bought cute winter pjs 

3. Bought some birthday/christmas presents 

4. Managed to get some new Kylie Cosmetic lip kits 

5. Ordered different meal deal rather than the usual.. this is big deal for me oki

6. Completed 1,000 words of dissertation for supervisor tutorial 

7. Some dece artists bought dece albums out 

Negatives

1. My camera battery died - charger in Liverpool 

2. University camera shop was shut = no pictures taking this week 

3. Had to pay £23 for customs charge off Kylie Cosmetics

4. Made a cup of tea and a fly flew into it before i had a sip

5. Found out milk goes off v.quick 

6. Left my hard drive in uni and my tutor is always too busy to be in his office to collect it 

7. Slowly running out of money